Bad. So Bad.

So yeah. I had a bad week. Really. Bad. I had fast food. I had soda. I had WAY too much sugar. And now, I've regressed in some of the weight I've lost. Sucks. But never fear, I am starting my couch to 5K program today. I was on week 7 when I had to quit last time, so I hope to actually finish it this time. Plus I have to get back on track with eating. You don't even want to know what I've eaten this week. So bad. I just don't know where my self control went! Out the window that's for sure.

Weight loss is such a frustrating and yet rewarding thing. It is one of the most frustrating experiences I ever encountered to have lost weight and to re-gain it. SO FRUSTRATING. Well, mostly disappointing. I worked hard for those pounds and it was so easy to gain them right back. Over the Thanksgiving holiday I bought some new pants. Smallest size I have been in in years. Since before having my 5 year old. And they fit, or at least they did when I bought them, so now I am making myself wait to wear them until I re-lose the weight I gained and as punishment I have to wait to wear them until I get under 170. It really shouldn't be hard, it just takes dedication and hard work. I still believe my mantra "I can have the things I love when I get where I want to be, so I can live without sugar and bad food I love for a couple months as a sacrifice to good health." I can go without stuff, as evident of my almost year and a half with no chocolate, but I'm finding it harder everyday to give up some things. Things like over eating. I can be eating great food, good-for-you-food, and eat way too much which destroys my calorie count for the day. I just need to go all MP (Military Police) on myself for a couple days to get back into the groove. And just keep remembering, when I'm done, I have a half case of caffeine free pepsi with my name written all over it! I just drooled a little thinking about it...

Speaking of caffeine, I'm interested, have any of you ever had a bad reaction to caffeine? Last week, while being completely bad, I shared a couple of sodas (I'll leave out how large these sodas were) with my husband and ended up with two migraine headaches with spots in my vision. I get these headaches every once in a while, genetic - I get them from my dad, but I never have more than one ever couple of months even as long as 6 months in between. But I had 2 last week! Just curious.